Sorry if you've already seen this on Facebook!

( picture under the cut )

Apologies for rarely updating this journal.  I usually use Livejournal for lolita and fashion-related things, and it's pretty unusual for me to talk about my personal life or anything else.  But right now I figured I would make an update on all of that for anyone who's curious as to what I've been doing.

I'm going to be graduating (hopefully, fingers crossed) from UC Santa Cruz in December with my BA in psychology.  It has taken way too long, and I'm so ready to be done with my undergraduate work.  I'll have to go on to grad school within the next few years, but I'm not too worried about that right at the moment, and I'm still sort of formulating my plans. My current plan is to apply to SF or SJ state for their graduate programs in psychology research.  My plans for an actual career are highly tentative right now - I mean, I'm only 22!  I should take my time to decide.  People sometimes ask if I want to be a therapist (I suppose they just assume that about psych majors), but that is definitely something I do not see myself doing in the future.  Um, yeah, just fyi I suppose.

Ideally, for the next few years, I'll just be enjoying my early 20s.  I'm still young and I can't take it for granted, right?  That means I'll still be modeling and wearing crazy alternative fashions, and posting about those things here on LJ.  It would pretty much be a dream come true for me to work at any of the brand stores - BPN, h. Naoto, Baby, AP, Harajuku Hearts.  Even if I can't, I'll still make it a point to be fabulous as often as possible!  Oh yes, and I'll also be moving back to the bay area :)

I've posted about this before on Facebook, but I have been seriously considering leaving the fashion.  It doesn't have anything to do with the community - I think you're all wonderful :)  It's for financial reasons.  See, the reason I was able to get into lolita in the first place was because my living expenses were all taken care of (my parents had saved over the years so that I would have a fund to support me through my first four years of college).  All the money I made was spending money.  I got into modeling and made A LOT of spending money, and that was how I built up a big wardrobe.  I haven't been modeling recently, thanks to the Prozac putting on weight.  My college fund is about to run out, and I'm going to graduate before the end of this year.  The only responsible option seems to be to get a job (although if I get back in shape, I can still do the modeling for extra money) and to give up my expensive hobby. 

But why not just stop buying new clothes?  I don't think I'll be able to ;_;  Going to lolita events and seeing all the awesome outfits just makes me want more, especially when it's a brand event or we hang out at a brand store (like the monthly SF meetups).  Plus, just going to the events every other weekend can get pretty expensive.  I'll miss the community, but I think I'd rather have a clean break with the fashion itself.

Maybe I'll keep a few things and go to events every once in a while to hang out.  And I doubt I'll just stop talking to some of the friends I've met through lolita.  I might get into gyaru or goth or otome fashion since they're cheaper and I can still be fabulous.  The Japanese brands have cheaper resale value and I can mix and match with western brands.  Who knows what I'll end up doing.  Probably otome.

As it stands right now, I think Fanime will be the last time I wear lolita.  Me and Joel are going to go all out every day of it though XD 

When I do sell my stuff, my friends list will have priority, cause I love you guys and I won't have to deal with shipping :D  If there's anything I have that you might want, let me know here.  I can drop things off at Fanime.

So, I look like a 12-year-old boy?  OK.  I can rock it.

Shirt and scarf are BPN, pants are Heart E.   I might wear this at Fanime.

Just some stuff I haven't posted on daily_lolita, from most recent to oldest:


AP sneakers <3
( More under the cut. I was bored y'all! )

From /cgl/ of all places:

>>>HEY LOLIS, LISTEN UP! REMEMBER community.livejournal.com/loli_valentines/2009/08/22/ Let's do it again! Go to daily_lolita  and your friends list and steal those lolita photos. Open up your image editor, write something nice, post it to loli_valentines  and then pass this along. Fuck the petty hate and negativity in the community, let's make the valentinesplosion happen again! Fuck vendettachans, loli_secret wank and any other community that exists for the sole purpose of belittling others needlessly. NOW GO GET THAT SHIT DONE AND REMEMBER TO PASS THIS ALONG!

I agree :) 

I've been thinking about selling some of my lolita things soon, mostly things that are too bright (trying to tone it down a bit) or too short on me.  Feel free to comment here if you're interested (I figured I'd give my friends list priority).  I'll be taking pictures and posting to the sales comm some time during the next week.
-BtSSB pink turtleneck sweater - probably $45 shipped
-BtSSB pink x red tartan skirt - $75
-BtSSB pink x red border print jsk - $130 maybe?
-AP mode girl set in black x white (the bustier part fits me awkwardly) - $200
-AP mini heart bag in black - $40
-IW piano pants (black with silver trim that looks like piano keys) - $65

and some stuff that I'm not sure I'm going to sell:
-AP lyrical bunny salopette (with matching socks and barrette) - I might auction it, since I'm not really sure how much it goes for
-VM plaid OP - though I might trade it for another classic lolita dress
-Meta pink skirt, it's fully shirred but kind of big on me

The AP casual set in black colorway is cute as hell!  And so worth waiting in the early hours of the morning for!

My new year's resolution is to wear awesome stuff more often.

For the past year and a half, I've been experimenting with the different substyles of lolita fashion.  But... It's really difficult coordinating a wardrobe with everything in it, and I'd rather stick with just one style.  Right now I'm leaning toward gothic and selling all my sweet stuff, but I really like my sweet prints in black (so maybe I'd keep those).  There's also classic lolita, but somehow I find the gothic aesthetic more appealing.  But at the same time I love looking like a princess!

So anyway, I just wanted to hear some opinions from my flist on what style I should wear.  I'm not planning on selling or trading anything soon, but I may at some point in the next few months.

Many of you on my friends list were at the tea party, but if you weren't or didn't bring a camera, I have some pictures on my new blog.

lillysnaps.blogspot.com/2010/07/red-sky-at-night.html

Also, my coordinate that I'm going to post on Daily Lolita later today:
( Yay boy-style! )